i always knew
you'd throw me away it was just a matter of time
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pursue me until they find someone else i am never someone’s constant but i am always someone’s temporary today
i realized something as i watched you from across the room you've never seen me. i don't know why i ever thought you did i'm like the "to-do" list you put on your fridge you glance at it once but forget about it as time goes on just another complacent factor that is trivial to you because today in that room all i saw was you while all you saw was everyone else and it took me back to the mindset of the girl who once loved you so so much but now now it's as crystal clear to me as i am to you: you've never seen me and you never will i hate you.
that is a certainty but you don't know this. even though you treated me like shit you'd never find blame in yourself so i pretend i pretend we're friends i smile i bring up former conversations i laugh but i don't mean any of it you wrecked me and i hate you for it down the road
up the neighborhood through the cul-de-sac parking a few houses down so no one will hear i sneak up the drive and slip into your bedroom door where you're waiting for me i once believed this was acceptable that you cared about me but i'm coming to terms with your lack of respect a 20 year-old woman behaving like a high-schooler immature hiding from your parents as if we aren't two consenting adults shrouding myself with the hours of 10 p.m. to 3 a.m. keeping completely silent so they won't hear you hid me under the bed and that was the last straw if you want to be with me it'll have to be outside of your bedroom the cul-de-sac the neighborhood and before 10 p.m. if not, then we're done but maybe that's the way it's supposed to be |
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